Monday, November 23, 2009

i'm off

i'm off for this WHOLE WEEK!
Thank you public education!
I can't say it enough but i'll say it again... I am so blessed to be where I am.

I have two (2) weddings coming up that I get to be a part of! I am extremely excited!
But i don't want anyone else to get married until i get over the weirdness that all of my best friends are married.

I saw New Moon! & for the first time in my life I was Team Jacob, his body was rockin!
Oh to be his sheWolf in the closet... AOOOOOOOO
He was so freaking FINE with that UGLY wig off nice abs nice butt... oh Taylor Lautner!


Soooo my room is complete! It is beautiful it makes me feel so grown up! Now i just need to find a place for all my junk.
I have aLOT to do this week..

BUT here's the peaks that I'm looking forward to this week.

-Stacy June gets here Wednesday :)
-Blair is coming back from Tennessee soon!
-My new HD DVR is going to be installed today!!
-I get my message tomorrow!
-Thanksgiving is on Thursday!
-Black Friday is FRIDAY!
-Eli Young with the future Mr. & Mrs. Bruce!

and the pits that i'm NOT very excited about at all are...
-grading/going through papers
-catching up on homework
-making Thanksgiving dinner

Well I hope everyone has a fabulous day and a GREAT Holiday...
here's my tip "Get Gingerbread LAttes from Panera NOT Starbucks."
One Love/ Be Love,
xoxo,Jen

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

sometimes...

i look around and where i am and what i got... and it feels so surreal.
i love you.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

it's official OFFICIAL... i AM A KINDERGARTEN TEACHER!

i feel almost stupid for how excited I am about this opportunity i have been given...
i really think i may just be the BEST Kindergarten teacher in the world...
my plan... drill drill drill my kids this year, next year i'll have my game plan fo sho...
i am truly blessed to have this class of 14 as my first class ever... MY FIRST CLASS!!
I am responsible for the early childhood education of 14 babies... & i DO NOT take that lightly.

I'M GROWING UP!

Today i got my probationary certificate posted and went to visit the Grands, my grandma worked and retired in DISD & my gpa still works for DISD, and needless to say education is VERY important to them. SO my gparentals were ECSTATIC about this so we went out to dinner (at lubys haha) i got a grown up talk by the gpa, about managing money ha... but then when we got talking about kids he was so sincere in that he was so proud that i was educating these young babies, and that was my number one priority was teaching the babies...
so then i start talking about my kinder babies this and that what we're learning then i tell him that i taught them this song for our transition from morning work to the carpet in the morning...

(to the tune of happy birthday)
good morning to you *point*
good morning to you *point*
good morning good morning
good morning tooooo yoooooou. *point*

just so happens to be the same song my gpa sang to me when i'd get up for school as a child...
talk about trying not to cry when you see your gpa cry...
that's when i first felt "the feeling" that after all these years i FINALLY made him proud.
& that's all i've ever wanted in this life, he's the reason i did all AP classes in high school, he's the reason i went to college, he's the reason i finished college, the reason i never had a baby, the reason why i do all i do...

it's a powerful feeling.

then i start talking about the GREAT chirstmas presents i'll be able to afford this year & he looks at me and says "you already gave me the greatest present" TALK ABOUT MELTING your heart... if anyone knows my gpa they know i'm the apple of his eye, if anyone knows me they know he's my EVERYTHING...

it feels good to be Ms. Hernandez 1st year Kindergarten Teacher :)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

gravity

just when you think you have everything figured out...
who you loved. why you loved. when you loved.
just when you think to yourself that you are mature.
with mature thoughts. mature actions. mature words.

it only takes one phone call at 2AM


to make you begin to think.... why do i love the way i love.
why now? why me? is this fate? is this purpose? is this true love?


then 15 songs in a playlist later you begin to remember why it never worked.
you remember what he did.
you remember how you felt.
you feel not love but compassion for something you once saw as so great.
& you feel sorry for him, for her, for them.

because they never got to meet the people you did.
they obviously never felt REAL love besides the fraction of the immature love you gave.
or the reflection of a vision of love he once saw in someone else's eyes.
because they don't know what life has to offer
and chances are they will never be able to grasp it fully...
they live a life of the consequences of their mistakes.

then you write a logical perspective in your blog to back up the reasoning of
no i will not talk to my ex boyfriend.


even though i am crazy for even thinking about it, and feeling special that i got a call at 2am in the morning because
he thought of me.
because he missed me...
you realize and understand, you're worth more than a 2 in the morning phone call
and a life of shallow expectations...
and the love you give is so powerful and strong
that only the greatest of men desire your WHOLE heart.
then you smile and lay down to bed knowing that you will not dream of this shallow anymore
but instead dream of the hopes of the happiness of your future.
the recollection of the time you felt whole with a man with no jaded memories attached.
a time when you believed you deserved the best
and the best believed he deserved you.


goodnight.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

jen and tiff convo

it's amazing when you can sit next to someone and feel like they're holding your hand.
it's rare that you can see a smile or a laughter in someones eyes
it's hard to find someone who even the most annoying and disgusting things are okay.
i think i'm ready for a grown up relationship because i've never know that...

"it's funny but when your ready is the time it won't happen it's when you lease expect it that it jumps into your lap"

life has been crazy i LOVE teaching Kindergarten, but I am SO physically tired i could cry, and all i want to do is come home to someone who i am crazy in love with... someone who can take vacations with me and won't yell at me if i don't wanna cook or clean the house. But i know that with all good things you must have patience... but just so you know... patience is hard for me to have.

Monday, September 14, 2009

horrible no good very bad day.

Woke up late-Dallas rainy day morning rush hour-got to school late- forgot my key- spilled coffee all over the lamenants i cut all weekend-forgot my name badge-forgot my lunch- had to eat spegetti the lunch room kid kind- left late- a car was parked behind me so I couldn't get out- got to class and realized I didn't do the last page of my homework-ate too much- found out the FIRST LOVE is ENGAGED!

keep on monday... keep on going i swear i'll slap you in the face.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

kindergarten

i'm subbing/teaching KINDERGARTEN!!!
out of 6 kinder class i'm in one of the two that are english!
i need energy!